My Poetry

Falling Any Second

I say we should end it,

theres no point in denying

that there's nothing left between us,

it was just acting.

You say something,

then do another.

You tell me you love me,

don't bother.

I say imma let you go,

then i change my mind

Once im in your arms...

your hugs are one of a kind.

Then we try to put some space,

that didn't work either

because as soom as our eyes met,

it was harder,

not to get closer.

Now im left hanging,

in a place so dead.

I know I'll fall any second,

it's such a breakable thread.

But before I do,

I go back to see.

Flashback to the time,

when it was just you and me.

You were everthing--

all the things--

that i wanted.

We were meant to be--

supposely--

but we lost it.

All the memories,

of you and me,

just drift away.

I thought it was real,

but you were pretending.

And now have fun watching,

as im falling

any second.

 Heart Attack
I remember the last day your arms held me
and the words your voice whispered in my ears.
Will we ever go back to how we used to be?
Or will my eyes continue shedding tears?
Will my legs run to you
just one more time?
Or will I have to hear your footsteps walking away,
rhyme?
Will you come to the rescue?
Or will I keep having this heart attack
and having nobody to go to?
Will you ever say my name again?
Or will I have to listen to the recording in my mind play
until it fades away?
Will the light in me continue to burn black
untill my heart dies from this heart attack?
Or will you shine your way through
and make me believe that this isn't true?
Will you ever truly love me?
Because I do love you, i guarantee.

Are You Really Gone?

I saw you slowly walk away,

without looking back.

You didn't stop halfway,

this moment I wouldn't replay.

My heart shattered to pieces

and the light in my eyes went pitchblack.

I didn't lose hope though,

I knew you'd turn back.

But this time I thought wrong.

Because you made the turn and went out of sight.

As my tears hit the floor, I said so long,

this meant, we'll never reunite.

Are you really gone?

Or am I in a nightmare?

Please swear,

that you'll pince me awake before dawn,

so I don't have to open my eyes

and realize

that this is all real.

That my heart will never heal.

That I'll never see you again

and the only thing that will last, 

is the painthat I contain.

Another Fake Smile

Red dress, high heels, and all the curls in your hair.

Looking all pretty and fresh, having no care.

Eye shadow, tons of mascara, and your cheeks pink.

Red on your lips and a smile that doesn't blink.

Dancing your ass off, trying to have fun, 

but in the bathroom, you cry your eyes out, with no window and no sun.

Promising yourself that you'll stop hiding.

Promising you'll stop subsiding,

but you keep going back,

you refuse to turn on the light,

so your life is still black.

The switch is right there, it's not that far away.

Once you make the walk, it's the beginning of a new day.
Because once the hard part is over with and done,
your new life has just begun.
Where your smile is not fake
and you don't regret any mistake.
Where you can actually go to sleep,
not be clueless on whether you're asleep or awake.
A life when you can really breathe
in the fresh air, 
without one doubt or scare.